Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Dentists, Mechanics, and Lawyers, Oh, My!

Before I let another month go by too lazy to post anything, I should at least give a quick update. I intend for this blog to be a place for me to voice my opinion on topics I enjoy discussing, such as movies, music, books, politics, etc., and a place to share photos and accounts of places I've been and would like to be. This is not one of those blogs where I share my deep feelings and personal issues with the world in a desperate show for attention. However, giving the big picture of what's going on now and then is worthwhile, since the three or four people who follow this blog are friends and family (then again, that means you guys already know all you need to know and more, at least in theory...), and a lot has happened, so here goes.

First, to get the biggest and worst of the news out of the way. Most of my friends are aware of this but it seems a few aren't. I regret to say that after exactly five years and one week having been married to Kathryn Matthews, I am now divorced. Yep. To quote the narrator of Fight Club, "I suppose these things happen." Those who need to know details already know them, and they don't go here. Suffice it to say she's back in Missouri living with her family, and this is a good thing that had been coming for a few years now, and we're both moving on.

Next, as an unforeseen consequence of the aforementioned divorce, the all-knowing, all-wise and benevolent administrators of Brigham Young University - Idaho (most of you know how I feel about that place, and there's more to come...) felt that they were better qualified as my ecclesiastical and spiritual leaders than my own bishop, and decided that with one semester left before receiving my B.S. in geology, I'd best continue somewhere else. Even though this was a poorly made and inappropriate decision on their part (I even had Dr. Dan Moore, my department chair, fighting for me to stay at BYU-Idaho; there really are a lot of good people there, and most of them are in the geology department), this has also proven to be a good thing overall, and not just because now I get to grow out my beard again.

I am now attending Idaho State University in Pocatello, have made several good new friends, and am in an environment that feels much more comfortable to me. It's proven to be a difficult transition back to the single life, I couldn't have asked for better help making the change. I found an amazing apartment in Pocatello, a mile from campus and very affordable, and four of the funnest roommates I've ever had. Additionally, since I need a certain number of resident credits before I can claim my degree from ISU, that means my education is delayed a couple semesters at least. That sounds horrible at first, but it's really great.

Two of my biggest complaints about BYU-Idaho involve their approach to putting students "first" by rushing them through the system so fast it's amazing you can learn anything there. Semesters are crammed into about twelve weeks, making a full 14-credit (as opposed to the traditional 12) load feel closer to 20 credits, resulting in fast burnout of students and a faculty nearing the point of rebellion (they don't even get a semester off!). The other is that they limit the total number of credits you can take to 140, meaning there's no opportunity to broaden your horizons by taking interesting classes unrelated to your major to help become a more balanced person. I suppose they consider education to be a nonrenewable resource, not to be squandered?

Now that I have no choice, I have a perfect opportunity to take classes I could never have fit into my schedule at BYU-Idaho, and have decided to minor in music. There are really only two things that make me feel truly content in life: the view from the top of a mountain after a long hike or from the highway during a long drive, and when I am performing music. This makes a geology major and music minor the perfect mix for me. I've already begun working on a project I've wanted to do for a very long time, which is to make brass arrangements of songs by Björk and other artists I admire. I'll post recordings when I manage to make good ones!

Now that I am single again, I've also finally been able to pay more attention to things that had largely been ignored due to financial situations and the difficulties in resolving those between a married couple. My Jeep is finally getting the attention it needs to stay functional and hopefully not fail catastrophically like it did last year. Also, while we'd been waiting years and years hoping to be able to afford visits to the dentist for major work, now my parents have been generous enough to pay for my teeth to get a major workover. To quote Scott Lewis (dentist I recommend in Rexburg), I had "a mess in there". Not anymore... over this past three months I had a standing 1pm appointment every Monday, and the major stuff has been taken care of. This includes finally having my nightmare wisdom teeth removed last Thursday (oh, right, there were a few non-Monday visits, too). To put it mildly, I feel like a krillion bucks (and my parents have that much less money!).

Finally, the last bit. Last Friday I moved to Boise for the summer. I got an internship working for the Forest Service making maps of environmental road hazards, and I start tomorrow. For the first week I get to camp and receive field training, then it'll be office work with ArcGIS. I also just found out that my good friend Scott Bergendorf, who was at field camp with me last summer, will be one of the field crews reporting to me, which will be cool. I spent most of yesterday just driving around Boise, and maybe it was the weather affecting me (it was raining and sleeting and snowing, and mid 30s, awesome weather!), but so far I love Boise. I need to buy a new camera, so I can take pictures. The drive from Rexburg to Boise couldn't have been timed better, as I got a perfect mix of storms and low-angle light to show off the mountains spectacularly, and I got to see Craters of the Moon for the first time. It was enough to remind me why I am a geologist.

Okay, enough of this! That's the update. I've got movies to review, concerts to talk about (I got to see Muse last month!), politics to discuss. I'll get to it!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Necromancy: This Blog Needs It

Yes, this blog actually died. I think it's safe to say that after two and a half months of no posts, this blog died. But it isn't completely dead, just mostly dead, and it will come back! Not yet... this is just a precursor. As usual, the main reason for the dearth of posts is laziness; but this time there is also more going on. It's been major life crisis for me lately, and while I keep personal stuff to a minimum on this blog, there will be a few details in a forthcoming post.

For now, I just want to share some music that's been getting me through the tough times, since I tend to express myself better with music than in words. I'm not going to elaborate much if at all here, just share the music and the lyrics, with my favorite lines in bold print, that is all. Enjoy, and if you are tempted to skip a song because you don't like the band, please at least give it a shot. I didn't like some of these bands the first time I heard them, either, and now they're some of my favorites. For example, this new(ish) song from Metallica, which is my new favorite from them:



The Unforgiven III by Metallica:

How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever?
Set sail to sea, but pulled off course
by the light of golden treasure
;

Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid, always afraid
Of the things he's feeling;

He could just be gone;
He would just sail on;
He'll just sail on.

How can I be lost, if I've got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold, how come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost? In remembrance I relive;
And how can I blame you, when it's me I can't forgive?

These days drift on Inside a fog,
It's thick and suffocating;
His sinking life, outside it's hell;
Inside, intoxicating;

He's run aground, like his life;
Water much too shallow
Slipping fast, down with his ship!
Fading in the shadows

Now a castaway;
They've all gone away,
They've gone away.

How can I be lost, if I've got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold, how come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost? In remembrance I relive;
And how can I blame you, when it's me I can't forgive?

Forgive me, forgive me not;
Forgive me, forgive me not;
Forgive me, forgive me not;
Forgive me, forgive me,
Why can't I forgive me?

(Guitar Solo)

Set sail to sea, but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure;
How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever?

How can I be lost, if I've got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold, how come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost? In remembrance I relive;
And how can I blame you, when it's me I can't forgive?


And now, quite possibly my new favorite song by Muse, for both the awesome piano part and especially the lyrics:



Hoodoo by Muse:

Come into my life,
Regress into a dream;
We will hide,
Build a new reality,
Draw another picture
Of the life you could have had;
Follow your instincts,
And choose the other path
.

You should never be afraid,
You're protected from trouble and pain;
Why, why is this a crisis in your eyes again?

Taught to be,
How did it come to be,
Tied to a railroad!
You'll have to set us free;
Watch our souls fade away,
Let our bodies crumble away;

Don't be afraid,
I will take the cold for you.

And I've had recurring nightmares
That I was loved for who I am,
And missed the opportunity
To be a better man
.


One more from Metallica before I finish with the song that I most identify with right now:



No Leaf Clover by Metallica:

And it feels right this time,
On his crash course with the big time;
Pay no mind to the distant thunder,
New day fills his head with wonder, boy;

Says it feels right this time,
Turned it 'round and found the right line;
"Good day to be alive, sir,
Good day to be alive," he says;

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Was just a freight train coming your way
;
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Was just a freight train coming your way;

Don't it feel right like this?
All the pieces fall to his wish;
"Sucker for that quick reward, boy,
Sucker for that quick reward," they say
;

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Was just a freight train coming your way;
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Was just a freight train coming your way;
It's coming your way!

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Was just a freight train coming your way;

Then it comes to be,
Then it comes to be.


And finally, the song that has most often been in my head the past few months, from the Canadian band Stars. The quote at the beginning has nothing to do with anything, it's the video right after it and the song that are so amazing. If you give no other song in this post a shot, please listen to this one, because it is so well done:



Your Ex-Lover Is Dead by Stars:

God, that was strange to see you again,
Introduced by a friend of a friend;
Smiled, and said "Yes, I think we've met before,"
In that moment, it started to pour;

Captured a taxi, despite all the rain,
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain;
And all that time, you thought I was sad,
I was trying to remember your name.

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin,
Tried to reach deep, but you couldn't get in;
Now you're outside me, you see all the beauty,
Repent all your sin;

It's nothing but time, and a face that you lose,
I chose to feel it, and you couldn't choose;
I'll write you a postcard, I'll send you the news,
From the house down the road from real love.

Live through this, and you won't look back;
Live through this, and you won't look back.

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave:
You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave;
I'm not sorry I met you, I'm not sorry it's over,
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save;

I'm not sorry, there's nothing to save
.



I don't know what these songs will mean to anyone listening to them beyond just good music, but they are songs I felt the need to share, especially that last one. Hopefully I will be able to get over this hump and get this blog rolling again, but until then, enjoy this music.